I am really upset and pissed off.  And feeling so betrayed at this moment it is hard to work around it.

For my stories, I spend HOURS researching and writing for one chapter.  Then I go back over the chapters and edit them, sometimes adding thousands of words.  Then there is all the time I spend on here adding pics and letting it look good.  This is all BEFORE I even hand the story over to the betas.

Yes, I spend a lot of time on them.  I also read a lot of fanfiction.  And I can certainly understand if someone’s story inspires their own.  It’s just going to happen.  It’s life! Shoot, What If is a direct example of this.  And because of this, I went to the author and told her my plans (even though they didn’t go that way) and we spent hours talking about it.  She gave me permission, and even when it went off the script that we talked about, it still wasn’t her story and she knows all about it.  I talk to her, and fully support her try to break out to the Writing industry.  If she asks me to ever pull the story, well I would talk to her, but I would pull it.  Its courtesy.

All I ask is the same courtesy.  If my stories inspire one of yours, then please ask me if you can use the idea behind it.  I’m pretty sure I would approve, I can’t guarantee, but I will tell you why if I can’t.  But to be off reading while I am relaxing and finding one of your stories out there under someone else’s name?  No.  That felt like betrayal.  It hurt.

It also made me consider what one of my betas said about locking stories.  But I decided not to do it.  This is fanfiction.  We write our own stories based on the stories out there.  As long as I am writing on that, I cannot say I will lock them.  But my Original Fiction?  Yeah that baby is locked up tight.  And soon will be going through its own purge if there are people approved to read it who are not reviewing.  Not every chapter, but at least something!  I am asking for feedback so that when I go back and do the edit process, I can fix anything that needs to be fixed.

So the meaning of this message?  Is that I am hurt, betrayed, and upset.  Someone took something that literally has been a work on my part of hours, and on this particular story, no less than four of my betas have helped me look up details and such. Not to mention the Beta who works on it.  She gives her time, but I admit it ain’t easy to make my work look like it does.  It is a reason I have Betas folks.  It was their time as well as mine stolen.  Time I give up to get the experience to write, and to give you guys the stories, time that they give unselfishly to make sure it looks good.  And all they get for a reward is access to the rest of my stories to read ahead.  Nothing else.  I get the reward of making some awesome friends in here, my group and my betas.  And not a penny more.  Ask my Husband.  He can tell you all about it.  In detail.

I have been hurt by demands for stories, when people don’t realize how much time I use to write this.  I have no life.  And with the help of my betas, they convinced me to relax.  Because of this I am working actively on ED, and am moving forward in the story in leaps and bounds without losing anything you guys like.  I am not putting in place holders to please fans, no instead, I am writing the story.  I plan on finishing this and You’re before I go back to publishing.  This way we all will have the updates and you guys keep me inspired and more importantly, my muse.  She is a hungry, mean, bitch.  And if I don’t write what she wants me to write, she leaves.

Thank you for listening to my rant.  It makes me feel better to get this off my chest.  I cannot explain how hurt I am by this betrayal.

Wendy