I admit, this week has been bad.   But..due to some comments on Facebook, and on here, I have decided to do this so maybe people may have an idea what I am dealing with. Getting a request each day on one forum or the other on a story is getting slightly tiring.

Here is a list of every single story I have (except the one shots completed) and their status.  (Epic comments means 50-100 chapters estimated):

Alice 2009:

  • Tea Shoppe: Pulled for publishing
  • Revelations of an Hatter and an Alice
    • Alice and Hatter: Complete
    • Revelations, Legends and Champions: WIP, Getting ready to go over Chapters for publishing to catch up site to FF, as well as any possible chapters pending.
    • A Revelation of the Past: WIP, Once chapter that is prologue is corrected, will publish it.

Inuyasha:

  • Blood of Innocence Burning in the Sky: WIP, Epic.  All Chapters are released, this is holding until after Original Fiction novel is done.

Once Upon A Time

  • The Best is Yet to Come: WIP, Epic depending on how the muses let us go.  I need to edit the large chapter I wrote and add in the Killian parts to the episode.  A small part after I was done adding him became approximately 1k that was originally 250 words…

Tin Man

  • This is Not the Beginning, This is Not the End: WIP, Epic.  Huge Epic.   I am currently working on getting all the chapters written out to the beta.

True Blood

  • In The End: WIP Epic Kinda….  I have one chapter to edit and release.  Then when I am done writing my own Original Fic this is top on the list to be worked on.
  • Learn to Live Trilogy
    • All I Want: WIP, Complete on my end.  All chapters have been released to Beta.  Currently aiming for Monday releases.
    • Sequel: Not started
  • I Never Did: WIP.  No idea how long it will be. This needs to be read and gone back over with a comb.  I plan on working on this on free time.  This was to be a release of mine from everything I am writing and ended up taking off on me.  I plan on doing this after the original novel.
  • Something So Right:  Not started.  It’s stewing in the back of my head, and will start around the beginning of season 3.
  • Never Changing Who I Am:  Winner of Kelpie’s contest. WIP:  I am finishing this then handing it off to be co-written.

Twilighted Stories:

  • Twilighted Tea Shoppe: Pulled for publication.
  • What If: WIP, may or may not be epic….  All chapters that had been written has been released to beta.  Will work on the rest later.  I started this in a different frame of mind that I am going to be changing things up in it.  I am not that person anymore, nor do I want to be.
  • Wisdom, Justice and Love: WIP.  Wisdom is completed.  Justice has not been written at this time.  Aiming for this when I am done with Novel.
  • When I Pretend: WIP, Epic. No lie, this was never planned, and was written when I was in a different frame of mind.  It is so different from anything else I written, I need to get in the right frame of mind.  I am trying to complete other works so I can move on to this one.  What If at least will need to be completed.  But this will be epic length at the very least.
  • Black Velvet: Halfway finsihed

Charmed/Twilight

  • Dying To Start Again:  WIP.  Chapters will be released once edited to Beta.

Harry Potter/Twilight

  • Such a Heavenly View: Year 2.  WIP, All written chapters released to beta.  This is one of 6 books planned….

Lord of the Ring/Twilight

  • The Sun Holds the Moon: WIP Epic.  Chapters released to beta.  Received the first back, haven’t had time to go back over it.

The Mummy/Twilight

  • Light Up the Path: Done.
  • Sequel: Not started, researching lightly.

True Blood/Twilight

  • Showed You My Scars:  Researching and thinking of, not started.
  • Set You Free Trilogy
    • Every Dark Night Turns Into Day (aka ED): Finished
    • Put Your Feet Up to The Edge (aka Edge): first two chapters written, and will be editing before I go to writing my Novel.  Planned for when I get back, within the top two!
    • ?
  • Picking Down Clocks (aka Clocks): Had major revision, will be editing and releasing chapters before I work on Novel

Vampire Diaries/Twilight

  • Game of Life: WIP, Epic.  No Beta.  All chapters written are released.
  • Free Will is Everything:
    • You’re All I Am Asking For: Finished
    • You’re All I Want: Not started.  Hoping to start this one soon.
    • You’re All I Need: Not started

Anthem of Angels Universe:

  • Cross the Line:  WIP Epic.  Need to write some more…

Original Novels:

  • Brotherhood of Aos Si: Need to be finished 1st in series
  • Brotherhood of Kaschei: Started, 2nd in a series
  • Brotherhood of Tregeagle: Broad ideas written out
  • Our Road is Long (Going to be renamed into a Brotherhood story): Need to be revised
  • Tea Shoppe: Need to be finished and majorly revised

This is not including all my other obligations.  I review for the Non-Canon Awards, I am part of the team for You’ve Got Blood awards as well as I contribute to the Food Blog and maintain the Anthem of the Angels site and the reblog site.  I also take one day a week and go through and update the other sites with the stories.  I try to make sure the Kittyinaz Group on Facebook is interesting and end up having to play the calming influence.   I also make banners and host writing contests.  I also host a Rec page on this site that a lot of people still use enough that one page from that section is always in the top ten pages of the day.  I try to be nice to everyone, and lately this has been backfiring in my face to the point I feel like it isn’t worth it.

For those that think I shouldn’t start stories, well, if I hadn’t nothing would have been written beyond Revelations and Tin Man.  It was due to a very dear friend Faeregina, that had me come back to writing.  I had even started What If during that bad time, and let me tell you, it is very depressing to read what I wrote in that time.  I refuse to be that person, and to be frank, it was a bad time in my life.

I truly understand the frustration of not getting your stories updated.  But I am one person, who is not getting paid to share these with you.  I am doing it of my own free will.  I am putting aside some obligations to make sure that all the chapters I have written are released to everyone before I work on other things.  I am not obligated to write, I do it because I truly love to make up these stories.  Your reviews are often what make me move forward.  And if you really can see the results, you would be highly shocked on what would be updated if I could make my muse work when I tell her.

Writing comes easy to me, I can pound out a couple chapters in a day if the muse is working with me.  But the editing can take me 2-4 days.  Think of it as this, my writing is a rough draft, detailed, but rough.  The editing is what most people would call writing.  I also talked to my betas, and one of the ones that know me best, basically told me to go back to the old way.  I was kicking out 2-3 chapter just editing obvious issues. But for those that have stuck with me awhile, I normally add 1-2k or more words to a chapter.  I am back to doing that.  It is not easy for me to edit, I have to read each chapter once to get the idea, then go back and add missing words and keep going over it until it feels right.

My husband has supported all of this, but he has put his foot down.  I need to work on the original novels.  If need be, I will stop everything to work on them.  I have few chapters and stories left to do, but I will and can just stop and leave you guys to wait until the novel(s) are done.  If the muse is willing to work with me and I can write more than the one, then I will be going through and working on as many as I can.

I cannot tell you the stuff going on in RL.  It involves more than just me, and it is a mess.  It is highly stressful and not something easy for any family to deal with.  It is more important than anything else going on, and it started yesterday.  This is my outlet, my way to deal with the stuff.

And then there are the wonderful group of ladies I call my betas.  The ones I can rely upon to listen, and who try so very hard to get to the chapters I am working on.  They have their own jobs, their own lives and even their own fiction they write.  I never nor will I ever demand them to put it all to the side for my stuff.  I release the chapters to them, but will NEVER demand them to work on anything.  It’s not my place.

There is the Banner making I do to help relieve the stress of writing.  I used someone’s comment to work on a banner for them to relieve stress before I wrote this. And then slept, cleaned house, and even cooked, and couldn’t just release this from just being written and never stating how I feel.

Please be patient, I know there are people who want updates, and you would be shocked at what the numbers would tell me to update, if I went by them alone.  Instead I am going by what the muse lets me do.  I am working on stuff, just be patient.

And again, this is not everyone.   Not by far, but imagine being asked every single day when I am going to post something, or please work on these stories.  It gets wearing and makes me feel like sometimes people think of me being a robot.  That I just churn out chpaters easily.  I try my hardest to make each and every story interesting to anyone who reads.  I have asked for betas since I know I am no where perfect and make common mistakes. I don’t want to overwhelm who I have, so I mention I am doing this story, they read it and if someone wants it, they tell me.  That it how the process works. I tell you guys more of what is going than most people, just so you guys understand what is going on.  To allow you to know I am alive.  I could just say blah, blah chapter is ready for you to read.  And leave it only there.  However, I understand being frustrated with not knowing when my story that I like is going to be updated.

Before posting this, I had a long talk with a few friends.  And they told me their thoughts. Some were shocked, and told me they just love when their writers updated.  They make sure to say thank you for sharing a piece of themselves.  Others who are writers shook their heads.  And yet others pointed out that at least people love the stories.  All of these are correct.  In fact, I have told myself the same many times.  However, again, I am stating to feel that I am being thought of as a machine who can churn out stuff.  With my stress in my life being so high, I just want to come into my office and work on my stories and escape for awhile.

I am off to add the chapters to the other sites, then hopefully, I can finish a chapter that I have been trying to work on since Saturday.

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