The posts I have been reading the last couple of days have done their bit.  I am coming back to address this crap that is going on.

First off, I know for American Android, it can be painful to get Guest reviews that are flames.  Shoot they still hurt!  But as much as I hate to admit it, our fandom has ebbs and flows.  Right now it is low, except the trolls.  This is a time of finals and graduations. Time for the freedom of the summer to be tantalizingly close, but with tons of hard work to get there.  For me, if I was still working my old job, I would be up over my head doing State calls I believe.  Since the last time I worked them, I managed to do them all by myself, (A job that would have a team of 10 working on them for weeks before hand)

However, the trolls do attack around this time of year.  I don’t know if the awards stir them up or what.  My advice and what I do?  Delete them.  If they can’t be brave enough to show their names, then they don’t count.  If they are so bad, do as some of my authors have and tell people that if they do ANY guest reviews, you are deleting them.  No matter what they say.

Also, American Android, I wish to say something.  If you give up, they will only pat themselves on their backs and go on to another.  If you hate the guest ones, leave Fanfiction.  Tell them why and just leave it to have your own site.  And disable them on your site.  Take a break, then come back.  Because really, you are punishing your readers when you leave like that.  And as a fan, I would really like to see the conclusion of Down The Rabbit hole and Whispers.  Especially when you left Whispers on such a cliffy!

Now. Moving on.

For Sephrenia, What the fucking hell people?!?!?!

I will tell you Sephrenia welcomed me to this fandom with open arms, and made me my first Buttons.  I was so freaking honored!!! I still have them, but now that I do stuff for my own stories I use them.  But still, the work she did for the banners… wow!!!!!! Look below!

Now, she has also made me a banner for a one shot I chip away at.  I refuse for it to be anything more than a one shot, and work on it quietly.  Only one person other than Sephrenia knew about it, and she made me the banner when I was not making them very well.

There it is.

Now lets address some of the complaints.  As a banner maker myself, I made a crapload that were claimed, and then never used.  It happens I figure.  Since no one has mentioned they wish they could have had that one, or anything else, I leave it alone.   Are you telling me that these people did it for the express reason to get my banners out of the circulation?  If so, then I have a bunch more that needs to be adopted.

Everyone has different styles.  Falling Stars taught me a bunch of stuff, but my banners are completely different.  Bertie Bott and I started at the same time, shared tips and so forth, and there is no way you can ever imagine that we are the same banner makers.  I use shadows alot.  It gives my banners sense of depth, and I like it.  I also use other tricks as I go, and mucho thanks to Falling Stars for one of her tricks that I use the heck out of!

Sephrenia was one of the first banner makers, that is dedicated to making banners.  She still does them.  She offers to help out the writers make something to show the readers what they are thinking.  Her contests, well each of them I voted for the winners.  So am I shocked that they won?  No.   hisviks was one of the authors I found when I read her contests.

Sephrenia is the opposite of me in many ways, in a staring in the mirror backwards.  But I still remember her fondly as someone who gave me a helping hand in the fandom.  I may not ask for banners anymore, since I make my own, but that is it.  Yes, we have different styles, and I use and like something different.  But what the hell people?

Are you going to attack me for being different?  I write in many fandoms, and this is the first time I am seeing a fandom self destruct itself.  Why?!?!?

If you hate reading the stories, then don’t.  If you don’t like the banners, then don’t look at them.  If you disagree, sign the heck in and let the author know!!! They don’t know you personally, so there is no risk of them getting in your face and starting a knock down fight!

Seriously.  You guys who are doing this, frighten me. And as someone who told her mother when a fight started in Bed Bath and Beyond and she spoke up, the worst anyone can do is hurt me.  I live in Texas people.  You know, the state that carries weapons proudly in the gun racks of their vehicles.. If I attack someone, seriously, I let them know.

Now, I do bitch and moan to my closest friends.  But it is my opinion, and like everyone else, I have them.  But that is what they are.  My opinion.  Am I going to go be mean for the sake of being mean?  No.  I don’t read or look at things that I don’t like.  I may poke some fun at them, but hell.  It is private.  Many people do it to me, (I know since I have read them.  The Void as I call the internet, well, others are around and read things.)

But for all I do for being human, I am standing here saying this is bullshit.

American Android, I am sorry for any part of the crap going on.  I said my pieces and hoped to let this die a quiet death.  That you are being attacked, well it makes me upset.  But I can’t do anything beside what I am doing now.  I do hope you at least finish your fics.  I would enjoy to see how the paradox in Whispers fixes.  Really want to know that one more than anything else.

Sephrenia, I adore you, and hope that people stop.  The fact you put yourself out there in something you love to do for others, is something others who attack probably don’t.  Don’t let it get to you.  You are talented, and most giving of your heart.  Please don’t stop.

And for you guys out there reading this, I don’t expect it will change anyone’s minds.  I hated to say anything because of all the crap that has gone on lately.  Life has sucked to the point that I shake my head at myself.  Was I hurt?  Yes.  Now?  Nope.  Finding out there are much more hurtful things in RL in people I face everyday is much worse.  And like I said on Memorial Day, it isn’t worth the sacrifices of others to be petty as shit.

So here is the deal.  The awards are being done solely by 4Padfoot.  Send her an email if you have suggestions.  Other than that, please stop stirring the pot.  We get that it was fucked up.  We get that you guys have opinions on what was going on.  We appreciate you saying your bits.  But if you keep stirring this up, innocent bystanders are going to get hurt.  You have done your damage to us that worked on it.  Beating a dead horse on posts is doing nothing more than stirring up resentment and opening wounds that were trying to heal.  Please stop.

And before any of you get ideas on attacking people because of this post, please don’t.  It isn’t going to do anything.  It is slowly killing our fandom, and we are already dying.  You are killing the authors who came to relax and give us the gifts of stories from their hearts.  Like I said, if you don’t like something, stop reading.  Stop looking.  If it is helpful criticism, then please leave it.  If it is nothing but flaming, then no.  Why bother?  I will tell you I delete anything like that.  If I get the chance.  My betas are awesome about looking over things and erasing them knowing my opinion on them.

Now. I am off to babysit a sick little boy that I adore, then to come home and deal with a puppy who is freaked out for some reason.  And to deal with my Fucked up Life right now.  Do NOT reply to spread this shit further.  If you want to say something positive, please go to someone’s blog or story and tell them, I agree with Kittyinaz, and am showing you my support.  Leaving them here isn’t going to help those who were broken like the plate above.  Go out and do something that will help another.

You will feel better for it.  I do all the time.

Kittyinaz