Yep, it is that chapter of Clocks. Late, but then…
One – There is a movie playing in the middle. It was supposed to be a gif, but nobody would use it (WordPress and FB gave me issues). Then it played too fast. I adjusted timing. It is still fast. All I can think is that movies are faster than gifs.
Two – As many of you know, I am often sick. I don’t work and this is often because of all the crap I deal with. Lately, it seems to be hitting me harder, but thank God that I am not in the middle of the worst of the depression. Most of the time we know what will set it off, and do try as hard as we can to make sure I don’t have that happening. But sometimes, it just comes, and I feel exhausted all the time. My body is rebelling against me, and I often want to curl up in bed and rock myself.
The fun part? No one knows what is wrong with me. I need my own House, MD. The best anyone has figured out is that it may be many problems going on, and they play off each other. If my insomnia acts up, I get sick. If my tummy doesn’t like anything I eat, the insomnia ends up being worse, and I get sick. If my back starts hurting and spasming, all the above happens.
The good news? The pills (Bio – X4) do work. I am NOWHERE close to what made me lose my job because of the constant pain and the inability to leave the house. I don’t think I can take that again. There are side effects to it, however, none of them are bad for me. They might cause others to hate them, but for me? Nothing. Nowhere close to what I was dealing with. It’s mostly the pure exhaustion that is wiping me out. I want to sleep, and my mind laughs evilly at me.
I may only sleep 4-5 hours, but hey, it is sooo much better than the none or 1 hour I had before. (I am taking something from Target called Olly Restful Sleep. It has melatonin plus something else to help quiet the brain.) I am trying to be better, though last week was a fail on all accounts. And I found out what happens if I get off the pills and everything.
So I have this week’s chapter ready, and of course, the ladies in my group were leaked all sorts of stuff and have been reading it as I write this. I am sorry there are not more pics, but frustration has gotten the better of me.
I will be back to working on the timeline of In The End this week. Also, I have a very awesome lady, named MissPharao who went through In The End and corrected all those German translations for me. I have to correct a banner still, and then upload all the corrected chapters to all the places. I will do this, but later. I really want to get to writing this stuff out.
I just wanted to tell you guys what is going on, why I am falling behind on obligations and so on. I really wish my health would listen to me, but then, if it did, I would probably be still working. I also wanted to let those out there that suffer, there are others going through it. I am not trying to get sympathy, I am just telling you what is going on. Frankly, I don’t want it. I am needing the anger to get me up. The more I get up and deal with things, the more I will win over this. Obviously, there are times I give up. (last week) However, I am now happier to be here working, helping others out.
Also, please don’t forget to read and vote for the Writing contest entries!!!! As well as there is the new one ready for you to enter.
Enjoy the chapter.
Kittyinaz
