Wow, It has been a while, and not a good one.

To be blunt, I have been in the hospital and Dr. Offices I think more than I work lately.   In fact, I am home today recovering from a procedure.  And I have to go back in two weeks, to make appointments for Surgery and find out the results of this one.

If you are not wondering what the heck is going on medically, skip this paragraph.  Ok, For those wondering, I was getting nauseous and sick at the same time each month and ended up in the hospital for one of the episodes.  It was a hit-and-miss on the medication and finally got a hit on a group of medicines that work to help stall it.  And I went in yesterday for them to see if they can figure it out.  Then I have had Bone spurs growing for at least 10 years if not more.  They are growing at the back of my heel and started to hurt bad enough that I needed pain pills to deal with those starting at the beginning of June.  I finally saw a foot specialist and they took X-rays.  Seems my bone spurs are growing up into my Achilles tendon and shredding them inside.  the Bone Spurs have no nerves so they don’t hurt, but the damage they are causing DOES hurt.  I see the Dr to schedule that procedure in two weeks to make sure the anesthesia is out of me and to give them time to get the bloodwork and MRI time to get to him.  We are also seeing if the insurance will allow both to be done at the same time or if I have to do them one at a time.   The left one hurts more, cause it is whole.  The right broke off the tip, but because of that, it is slicing up the tendon on the inside and out.  Frankly, the Dr is shocked I am walking around.  

So, yes.  I have not been in the mindset to write and do anything really.  I am not supposed to walk around, so I am trying to deal with everything and at least go to my job at least once a week.  I am starting to read and I am trying to get back into writing.  I did find out I have sleep apnea and fixing that is giving me more energy and a clearer mindset, but everything is weighing me down.  I have been reading my stories and getting mad when I get to the end of them.  My hubby thinks it is hilarious.  But shortly I am going to be even more restricted on what I can do.  That may help with writing, or I may be in pain enough that it will irritate me as well.  

But I figure that I would touch base with you guys.  I am reading the reviews, and even going back to read the story to see if it will inspire me to work on them.  I am reading some of my favorite stories I have reread so much in my life.  I will say that Losing Connor has really affected me even now.  Murphy is trying to be there, but his mindset is not the same.  And my hubby’s dog hates this room for some reason.  

I also will try to work on the base for the new website(s).  I have a plan but not the inclination to execute it.  I am sorry.  I seem to trade one “get better” for two “get worse”.   I hate to ask for money, but it is for the website and to help Robin pay for this site.   Hopefully, I can get it set up soon, and in fact, I am going to try to get the basis of what I am thinking set up today, but as the Dr office warned me that I am not to Drive, not to do something else and Not to make any decisions or sign papers today.  Since I can’t remember one of the things I am not to do, and my ankles hurt since I was taken off the medication for 2 days, I am not promising anything.

I hope you guys are doing great, and that the woes of the world are not too heavy, for they are the reason I am not on Social Media anymore, nor watch the news unless it is weather related. (Hey I live on the Gulf Coast, and need to keep an eye on the weather!)   Remember to do something for yourself each day, and go somewhere that will make you happy.  A visit to a museum, go outside/ inside the city,and remember that life is not always pain, drudgery, and a heavyweight.  My in-laws had us come to visit them, and we all went to the Grand Canyon.  It was awesome, we did the Train and stayed the night at the Village iat the Canyon Rim.  It was perfect and I spent a lot of time sitting, (because of my ankle and shortness of breath that is a result of my Pnuemonia) I looked out at the canyon and could just wonder and think of how this will all pass in a blink of eye to the canyon.  It made me ready(?!?!) to go to the next set of what I need to do with the hope that next year I will be a better place and be able to hike around.  I love wandering around in forests and just listen to the wind through the trees and I had forgotten this fact.  

So this is me reminding you guys that you need to go enjoy life.  It can be little things, or even trips.  Car rides were a big thing for me when I was younger, and I still enhoy them.  The trip up to the canyon was as much as fun as staying there.  And the Train!!!  That is one thing off my bucket list.  To ride a train.   Though the Cows yelling at us when they had to get off the tracks made me laugh.  (It’s not like the train doesn’t make the same trip everyday at the same times!)

I will see what I can do and you guys please, be nice to each other, especially in this heat.  It’s brutal and for me, way too humid!! 

Kittyinaz