I am so sorry.

Last week had been another one of those weeks you were ready to fall on your knees thanking God to have gotten through.  I would have literally done that, but my knees are not able to take that anymore.  God I hate getting old!

I know I skipped a lot of updates last week, and sadly, it looks to be the same.  The reasoning?  I am a bad Author in communicating with Betas.  One of my poor ladies thought what I wanted was no where close and she did a fantastic job with what little I told her.  Sadly, it was so confusing for both of us we agreed to erase it and never talk about it ever again.  Wait. Did that count as talking about it?  umm… oops.  Ignore all that… (strikes it all out)

And this past weekend?  My muse ran away.  Absolutely refused to do anything.  She had pushed for When I Pretend, and to placate her, I went reading through it, making banners and so forth.  I went to bed and she had disappeared in the morning.  No coaxing her would work, so I threw my hands in the air, and went to read my close to 200 update emails.  I am happy to say with reading non stop Saturday, Sunday and Monday night, I am down to 18.  My OCD is happier, but I can see her tapping her toes, giving pointed looks towards the inbox.  Those two need to get together and plan these things.

Oh, wait.  That is what they did, isn’t it..

lol. Oh lordy.  I am going crazy….

Now that close to 200 updates, that is with any updates to the story after that being deleted.  So if there were 2 more chapters updated, I erased those 2 since I would get them when I read the one. This backlog happened after the last couple weeks.  You can guess when I left online and ignored emails for awhile.  So about 2 weeks worth of updates lets say?  NOW do you understand why it is taking so long for the database, and we wanted, begged, pleaded on our knees and so forth for help?  For me alone, there is so many stories!!! 650+ in Fanfiction alone.  That is not the blogs, not the other places I read stories, just FanFiction.  And I started to put only completed stories (unless I am personal friends with the author, then I will put their stories in there) since I came to the TB/SVM universe.

This is hanging over my head, but I am also working on blocking out my book.  I have read it, and need to go back to check on some things, but I am about ready to start reading it.  For the pre-readers, you should be getting a chapter this week.  Get with Rissa, since you will not only need the passwords to the chapters, but how to get to it on the site.  It is hidden thanks to 4Padfoot’s amazing skills.

As for the last month Writing Contest, I finished my end, we are just waiting for the polls to be set up, so check on your emails later tonight.

For the weekends, I am going to be trying to work on Fanfiction, if the freaking muse will cooperate.  I still have chapters to edit, and Sacred is still getting pointed looks from it’s pre-readers.  I really would like to finish it, so I am going to try to keep working on it.

Now, you guys will get an idea of how everything works, since I will be posting as I finish chapters for the book.  As each chapter is posted, I will let them know.  Then move on to the next.  I am planning on Wednesdays or Thursdays to make any notes I need to then back to working.  I do better working in spurts.

So I will see you guys later, but I wanted to let you know it is all my fault nothing is done and ready for you this week.  We will try again.  I may make Mondays the days when I go through the stuff the Betas finish, and update it so it will be ready for me during the weeks.  WE will see. I need to come up with something. My OCD is looking at me with her eyebrow raised.  Artistic temperament with OCD.  A recipe for going slowly mad I think…